Emotion

I can't remember, since when i became more and more emotional.

One of my friend told me before, don't let people control our emotion, we have to control ourself. I had tried it hard, but is failed. Not only failed, is became more serious. My emotion seems like control by my son, it follows his every steps he went through. I will smile when he throw me a smiling face, i will sad when he act abnormal. 'Sad'.....means i will drops my tears for no reason, just feel like want to cry, to release stress, sometimes i also very hate it, cry is not a method of solving problems, but i really cant control my emotion.

My husband can easily read my emotion through my face. But sometimes i have to pretend that i'm find in front of him, because he will drops his tears when i'm cried.

Many friends told me 'be happy'!!! I had forgotten what means 'happy' since few years ago. I think 'happy' will only come back to me when my son is being normal..............

I always put on my mind 'Hope on Tomorrow', but i dont know how many tomorrow we have and who can predict tomorrow?

How nice if there is an on / off button on our emotion............